New Future

I feel so old these days. It's sad to think, in a few years I won't have these vacations to spend joking around with Alex, Buster and Willie. I won't be able to stay home a lot and watch movies with my sister. I won't be able to help out at my parents' restaurant, either, not that I want to do that too much. I won't be able to go to Jay's house on Sundays to play Halo 2 or whatever's out then (assuming I don't come back here for extended periods of time). Now more than ever I can feel my childhood slip by into vapor.

People always want to grow up when they are younger. Of course I'm looking towards my future but I'll probably always miss my past. I'll miss being able to hang out with Buster and Alex every weekend playing videogames like I miss staying at home watching cartoons without much homework to do as I was younger or snuggling up to my mom as a child. I always miss the childhood I had as well as think about the childhood I never had. I think about my missed opportunities as well as my happy triumphant moments. I suppose the future and present is the only real place to look and work on, but I'll always have fond memories of my past, and that makes me feel old.

Another year passes by and I hope it is better than the last.